A little inspiration......

I read this on a weight loss site I belong to and thought it pretty much says it all.

Keep Believing in Yourself and Your Dreams

Every goal that has ever been reached began with just one step...and the belief that it could be attained.
Dreams really can come true, but they are most often the result of hard work, determinations and persistence.
When the end of the journey seems impossible to reach, all you need to do is take one more step.
Stay focused on your goal and remember that each small step will bring you a little closer.
When the road becomes hard to travel and it feels as if you'll never reach the end...
Look deep inside your heart
and you will find strength
you never knew you had.

My little "Monkey"

I thought I'd better post a pic of the little guy (my great nephew and the apple of eye). He's 3 months here. Doesn't it look like he's thinking " Why are you bothering me?"

Quiet Time

It's been pretty quiet lately. No appointments, just waiting for March 1 to get here. I've had a terrible pain in my neck for about 2 weeks now. I think I need to see a chiropractor or something. I am trying to have better posture at work today so we'll see. Bought a different car yesterday. We got Tim's dads Chrysler New Yorker only 53,000 miles. Don't know what year I'll have to ask the expert (Tim) so I know. I babysat on Sunday, I think it's safe to say Bobby was not real happy with me for about the first hour. But after that he took a nap and woke up in a really good mood.
More later

it's a time to celebrate , c'mon lets dance!!!!!!

I've been really stressed lately worrying about changing insurance at work. I was soooo afraid that the insurance they were going to offer wouldn't cover gastric bypass surgery. I've just been a basket case. Crying at the drop of a hat, not really hungry but eating out of stress, fine one minute, crying the next and crying some more. I've been missing my mom so much lately. I guess it's because, ya know it was New Year's, then her 83nd birthday, not being able to share the whole journey towards surgery with her, because after all I have no doubt in my mind that she would be so proud of me. My birthday is coming up and I just keep thinking... no card, no phone call with her singing happy birthday, and us laughing till we about peed our pants, It's been so hard lately. Drum roll please!!!!! The insurance I will be changing to on March 1, 2009 DOES cover my surgery. Of course there are requirements I must meet for approval, but that shouldn't be an issue. I will be posting before pictures very soon, and of course pictures all along the way of my progress. After all this is about "my new life" and my journey.

And on another note.....

For those of you who still are blessed to have your parents with you on this earth be thankful, very thankful. If you think you honor your parents now, honor them more.... love them more.... cherish them more....

Good News

Well I had the day off yesterday and had 2 doctor appointments. First I went to see the pulmonary doctor and she released me for surgery. It was a checkup to see how I'm doing with my CPAP and if my O2 levels are staying up while I sleep. She said everything looked real good and wished me luck with surgery. Then I went to see my family doctor to get results from blood work. I was impressed... my good cholesterol was good, my bad cholesterol was good, my fasting glucose was 105 (should be under 120), and my blood pressure was 116/66. YEAH considering it was running 155/80. I have my support group meeting on Feb. 2 and the only thing left to do is change insurance on March 1, and then submit my request to the insurance company and PRAY!!!!!! Oh I also had to get a tetanus shot yesterday and OMG is my arm sore, I couldn't even lay on it last night. It feels like it's being crushed. Hopefully it won't last longer than a day or two.

All's Quiet.....

It's been relatively quiet lately. I did an overnight study of my O2 levels since I've been on the CPAP for awhile now. I'll get the results when I see Dr. Tudor on the 27th. I hope it turned out good. I'm just patiently waiting to change insurance companies, then my surgeon can submit to insurance for approval and I should get a surgery date. Tim (my wonderful husband) has decided to have the surgery also. He has his informational meeting for clinical weight loss on 1*26*09 and his consult with the surgeon on 04*07*09. I'm stoked about him having it done too, we can be such a great support for each other. My knees have been horrible lately, so much pain and stiffness. I'm really hoping I can stand it just a little bit longer. Once I start loosing weight they should start feeling better. Loosing weight will NOT fix the problem and keep me from having a knee replacement surgery but hopefully will delay it for a long time. That is definitely something I am not looking forward too. I'm a wussy when it comes to pain!!!

It's been awhile

Sorry it's been awhile since I posted anything. Not much has been happening lately. I found out I don't have to do 6 months worth of clinical weight loss YEAH!!! I'll be done the beginning of March and the surgeon can submit to insurance at that time. So keep you fingers crossed that everything is a BIG GO!!!!! I'm so anxious for a new life I can hardly stand it. People who have never had a weight problem just can't understand. I'm ready for simple things that thin people take for granted like:
1.)Having my Mom look down from Heaven and see her wish has come true, that her daughter is finally thinner and healthier.
2.) Being able to do more with my husband.
3.) Being able to do more with my sister.
4.) Taking my dog on a really long walk. (god he would love that)
5.) Walking up a flight of steps like a normal person and not one step at a time.
6.) Looking in the mirror and liking the person staring back at me.
7.) Being able to wrestle on the floor with Whizzer and my new great nephew Bobby. And not worrying if I'll be able to get back up.
8.) Being able to go on trips and not worrying if I can do all the walking required.
9.) Going shopping and not having to ride in a handicapped electric cart.
10.) Being able to shop in a regular store off the rack for less money, instead of having to order everything through plus size catalogs and paying an arm and a leg.
11.) Going out to eat and not having to request a table instead of a booth.
12.) Going to a ball game and fitting in those little seats.
13.) Looking down and seeing my toes.
14.) Walking up a flight of steps like a normal person and not one step at a time.
15.) Having joint pain pretty much all the time due to the weight.
There are many many more things.... maybe I'll list more at a later date. Two of my biggest regrets.
1.) Not doing this sooner so my Mom could have seen the results in person before passing away. She would have been so proud of me.
2.) Not doing this sooner so I could have made my husbands one wish in life come true, to be called Daddy. I know we would have made wonderful parents.