Getting Anxious

Well I'm still trying to get the hang of sleeping with the equivalent of a gas mask on my face. I have an appointment on Jan. 2 to see if a different mask will help. I get weighed on Jan. 5 and I'm afraid I gained over Christmas. I'm going to try really hard between now and the 5th to loose as much as I can. Boy when I started this whole process in September it seem so far away till I could have surgery. It's just around the corner now, April will be here before you know it. I'm excited to start a new life but also scared that I will fail at this too. After all I have failed at weight loss my entire life. With the surgery though I hope and pray that it gives me the ability to succeed.